Hey guys. Yesterday argued and screamed at my eldest sis. Let me give you a brief intro about her. She's 18, work only when she needs the money and feel like it, use the money she earned to go pub with her friends to drink alcohol, never give my mom a single cent. Now she's thinking of changing her phone to an iPhone. I don't have a good impression of her best friend Jeslyn. She drinks, smoke and act all nice to a friend who became rich recently so that she can buy them drinks and pay for cab fee. My family is not exactly rich, yet all my eldest sis is doing is using money for her own pleasure and for wants but not needs. The huge difference between her and me is that I rather save money while she rather spend them all and worry about what to do later. She's unhygienic and lazy while I'm always doing housework with my second big sis(older than me one year). Unhygienic because she's lazy, that's why. She never washes her own clothes yet always change them to go out with her friends. Basically, she's treating our house like a hotel and as if she's rich. Now that you guys know how bad she is, you may wonder how my mom feels about her. She loves her. Bias to her in fact. She doesn't need to do housework as long as she claims she has projects to do(even if she wakes up at 1pm) and if anything happen in the family, she doesn't have to solve it. I do. I'm the youngest and yet my mom expect me to do things eldest ought to do. And if I don't help, mom will insult me like how evil hearted I am and how it's useless for me to study so much. Hello~, my eldest sis has more years of studying than I do, so why not rely on her like it ought to be?!

I'm not all healthy. In fact I'm very weak. I have all sorts of health problems and my bones like to crack whenever they want. Yet I have to study hard if not mom scold me for being stupid and assume I'm being lazy whatever, and do housework twice the amount a normal person has to do. Why? Cuz I'm doing my sis portion. The infuriating thing is I never get into the way of hers, yet she always get into the way of mine. She puts make up and her double eyelid sticker can be found all over my books! I like clean and neat books, not books filled with traces of mascara and fake eyelids! Just yesterday, she bang on my door when I'm using the bathroom, took her toothbrush and spit out her saliva at the tap infront of me. Talk about gross! How can I live with an elder sis so lazy and messy and makes a mess out of the things you put in hardwork to? Like if I arrange a space on sofa to sit, next minute she'll put her bags all her silly stuff on it. There goes my hardwork. Funny thing is my mom doesn't mind! She can get away with all sorts of responbilities, and I have to bear them. Recently our Internet isn't working, guess who ran off caring about herself only? Yes. My eldest sis. Her reason being she can go to school to use Internet there. She didn't give a shit about my second sis who needs to use Internet at home! In the end, my mom forced me to fix the problem and we email the operator. It's fixed now, and guess who returned? It's her again. I thought someone said that she will use the Internet at school so she doesn't and basically has no right to use the Internet at home? Yesterday morning after my second sis and I used the Internet, we asked her to use the Internet if she needs now or we will off. The operator told us not to on off too much a day or it'll spoil again. She was sleeping, so we turned off. Note: we did tell her to use or we will off. In the end she woke up super late as usual and claim to use Internet. Our reaction is no! Then she acted like a spoilt brat and whine to my mom. Of course my mom side her. So in rage, I told my mom if Internet spoil don't say I didn't do a single thing, and the person responsible would be my eldest sis. Now I'm not getting in the way of who want to use Internet and when, cuz when it is spoilt, I don't have to be responsible. I'm really sick and tired of my family. The unfair treatment at home. I'm not the eldest, yet I have to do what an eldest need to do. To show more of my mom unfairness, she doesn't give me pocket money as often, while if my eldest sis needs to go out to have fun, she immediately gives her 10 bucks. At home if I speak about my school life, she doesn't give a shit and treat my words like air, while having a convo with my eldest sis. Now you guys know how I hate my family and they hate me. The situation of my sis, my mom and this house is so bad I cannot even describe it properly.

Yesterday after I bathed, I screamed at her with all the vulgarity spilling out of my mouth and raking up the past of how useless she's been. Both of us cried in anger. Yesterday was the day I stood up for myself. I threw her bag, screamed at her etc. Things only she does to us while we can never do to her(either mom scold, or she scream). I'm in the right, telling sis to not on off Internet so much or it'll spoil. I didn't do anything to her(I did threaten to smash all her cosmetics, cuz till now she still leave all her used double eyelid sticker around, but I didn't.) yet mom tells me to shut up and let my sis do whatever she wants. I hate this house. I thought about staying in hostel. At least I don't have to save electricity, worry about saving money for my mom, do all the chores and fix messes made by my eldest sis.

why can't I have a nicer, responsible and considerate elder sister? I don't like being treated so unfairly. If my mom wants me to clean the house, we should all do it. Not let my big sis sleep till so late! I don't like my big sis because she is not being a big sis to us instead she cause trouble for us to fix. I hate it when my mom expect me to be responsible for anything and everything, while not appreciating my help. Sometimes I thought by staying at hostel, it will show my mom how wrong she is not to appreciate what I done, and realising that big sis does absolutely NOTHING. I hate this family of mine. My big sis and Mom treats me like a villain and went to tell all my relatives about how "bad" I am. Can't wait to grow up work be a successful person, while watching my big sis land bankrupt.

Wish Minghao was here to listen to me );